So, I've decided to take a study break and write a new post while I eat my very fattening Chic-fil-A sandwich and fries. Lately I've been pondering the idea of love, first love and young love mainly. And, I think I now understand why people always say that your first love will always be different from all the rest in your life. If you find your first love at a young age, you most likely TRULY believe that you have found your perfect match. You whole-heartedly believe that you two will end up together, and you probably have an "its us against the world" type of attitude. That is what makes first loves are so much different than anything else you will find in your life. Most people who find this in their teens don't believe they have found their "first love", they believe they have found their ONLY love. I know that's surely what I thought. And while being in love that way makes it 1000 times more difficult when/if things don't work out, it is also what makes it so beautiful. You are completely fearless in this love. And sure, that's what makes it naive at the same time, but that's why there isn't anything else like it. How many times in your life can you say you're absolutely confident that nothing could possibly go wrong? It's that type of haphazzard bravery that you only have when you're young. You haven't been jaded by having your heart broken, so you don't even entertain that possibility in your mind. If you are lucky enough to be with your "first love" for the rest of your life, then that is amazing, because it means you were right. Nothing went wrong, and you actually did find your perfect match. But, for the rest of us, we have to go on, having had our hearts broken, and be brave enough to dive in again. That's why all future relationships will be different after that first big break up. You know what that pain feels like, and fearing that feeling again might make you approach things differently.
I'm not sure if I'm getting my point across as clearly as I had hoped, but I know what I mean and that's all that maters. All I know is, nobody's life goes according to plan. Something will always pop up that you had no idea would, and that is what keeps life interesting. Am I glad I got my heart broken? Hell no. But, I'm a better and stronger person for having lived through it, that's for sure. To be cliche, you live and you learn. And I surely did learn my lesson. Life isn't a fairytale, but you can make it a hell of a good story nonetheless.
Ok, back to work. =)
m.m.a.
4 comments:
That makes a lot of sense, even to someone who's never been in love. You're one smart cookie.
It makes total sense.
And thanks, because this really put some things in perspective for me with my own situation....some things I hadn't thought about.
Love you always
Lolo
So, I love your last line.
But anyway, I totally agree. It can be so hard, and the next time won't be the same. But I feel like so much of that excitement surrounding the first love is tied so closely with fear. That constant back-and-forth: "Will it work? Will it not?" Next time won't be like that. There is something about waiting for that comfort in love that makes it all worth it.
Love you. Keep on truckin', girl.
Layla Wirt once stated, "without anything ugly in the world, there would be no room for beauty." The tribulations you share have created an inspirational masterpiece known as "Marisa's Musings."
I stay tuned because this is the best story ever!!!
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